“Babe I’m home!” Niall called out his voice ringing through the house. I was in the bedroom just sitting at the window watching raindrops sliding down the glass. Usually I’d be jumping up and running to the door when Niall got in but I really wasn’t in the mood at the moment. I still felt in shock from the news I’d gotten just two hours ago and I hadn’t moved from this spot at the window once. 

    “Hey love, are you feeling better?” Niall asked coming into the bedroom and giving me a soft kiss on the cheek. I just nodded my head my stomach churning at the thought of letting Niall in on our very big news. “Are you OK?” he asked me pushing a strand of hair out of my face. Tell him now Brooke I told myself. Just get it over with. I opened my mouth to say the two words that were killing me inside but I found myself becoming tongue-tied.

    “Niall I-” I started but then stopped mid sentence. Niall looked at me curiously waiting for me to continue. “I-I’m… too tired to make dinner tonight, can we just get some takeout?” I said covering up my nervous mistake. Niall nodded and ruffled my hair a little bit.

    “That’s all?” he asked me chuckling. “Of course. I’ll go call for some Nandos.” I smiled at him as he left the room and the minute he was gone I rushed to the washroom and threw up once again.

    Throughout dinner I remained very quiet and I went to bed early that night. Niall had to get up early tomorrow for an interview anyways so he was perfectly happy with sleeping early. Once I knew he was asleep I let myself cry into my pillow for what felt like hours. Julie was letting me do all the designs for a special fashion show this summer and even wanted me to model a few, how was I going to model if I was pregnant? What if Niall left me? Everything felt so up in the air right now I just wanted this baby out of me.

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    Niall left around six in the morning and gave me a kiss on the top of my head thinking I was still asleep. I wished I had been. I hadn’t gotten any sleep last night I’d just stayed up crying the whole time. After lying in bed for another fifteen minutes, after Niall left, I got up and made myself a cup of tea. Hopefully I’d be able to keep down breakfast considering I was pretty sure I had hardly any food left in my system with all that puking I’d been doing lately.

    I didn’t know who to talk to or what to do at this point so I found myself calling Ella just as I always did when I was in trouble. I knew she’d be alone because the boys were all out at their interview.

    “Brooke?” she asked me groggily. I’d obviously just woken her up but at this point I didn’t really care.

    “El I’m sorry I just- I really need to speak to you. Something’s wrong, can you come over?” Ella didn’t wait a second before responding.

    “I’m getting ready right now.” Ella and I always responded quickly to each others SOS calls it was just how we worked. It only took Ella twenty minutes to show up and she was still in her pajamas, she’d obviously rushed out of bed to get here. The minute I opened the door I saw she was holding a thing of donuts.

    “I thought it sounded serious,” she said smiling at me sympathetically. I tried to return it but I really was just too stressed out at the moment.

    “I didn’t know who, to call” I said desperately taking her into the washroom. I took a deep breath before opening the drawer, which had my pregnancy test in it. I handed the test to Ella and watched as her eyes practically bulged out of her head.

    “Brooke…” she said in shock. I felt my whole body begin to tremble as I broke down in tears dropping into Ella’s arms. “Babe” she cooed rubbing my back comfortingly.

    “I’m not ready for this,” I sobbed. “I just want it to all go away” Ella nodded holding me tight and not letting go until I pulled away myself.

    “I’ll help you” Ella said to me holding my hands in hers. “Brooke I will do whatever you need. If you want to get an abortion I will take you to the clinic and if you want to have the baby I will go maternity clothes shopping with you but I don’t think I’m the one you want by your side doing all of that love. I think the one you really want to be telling right now is Niall, it’s his baby too you know.” I nodded trying to collect my breaths.

    “What if he leaves me?” I asked her in terror. Ella just shook her head trying to calm me down.

    “Come on Brooke we both know he isn’t that guy and he never will be. You guys love each other so much, it’s all going to be OK” I nodded, Ella was right I couldn’t keep this a secret forever anyway.

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